Saturday, July 30, 2016

When There is Silence...





There haven't been any words flowing here on these pages the past few months...

Silence.  Ponderings.  Questions.  and Sortings... have all been happening in this, this heart of mine.

Do you ever feel the need to step back a bit?
And wonder if you'll let someone down in the middle of re-evaluation?

Words draw me.  Stories are powerful.

Words have such power and meaning and depth.

And because of that they bring a tremendous blessing or depth of hurt.
I have been mentored, encouraged, and convicted by many of another's words and would like to pass that gift along to you.

I found myself, in the midst of writing, having that my focus instead of what really needed to be... Jesus. The One who life is really all about... Who He is and the work he is continuing.
Phil. 2:13  for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.

Words are mentors and writers the instrument, through which they are shared.
Only as I live and write out of my love for Jesus, will you be truly and life-giving-ly blessed. (not a word, I know :))

Yes, life-giving.

So, I turn to the Life-Giver.  The One who knows your heart and mine.

I want to share pieces of  my journey and story and I want to hear yours.  For isn't it only as we walk together in the hard and the easy, the joys and the sorrows that the melody of our hearts is deeply heard and felt?

But most of all, I want us to see and know Jesus.  The Life-Giver.
The musician who plays a melody in the lives and hearts of those of us, mere humans.


Maybe today, you too, need to take a step back.  To re-evaluate.  To reconnect with the Life-Giver and Musician of your story.

The world will go on.  That's okay.
More importantly is your connection to the Vine, the Life-Giver; for only out of that will your heart truly find peace and be at rest.

And out of that, fruit will blossom.
And the sweet melody will sound.






Sunday, April 10, 2016

The Promise and the Hope In the Midst of Death




Recently death invaded life.

My aunt is one of half of her siblings that have a genetic issue that affects the heart.  She entered her second open heart surgery with the awareness of the high risk of not living beyond surgery.  Surgery went well, but her heart was too weak and it did not survive the procedure.  A week and one day later, she left her earthly body to exchange it for an eternal one.

Death.

We, as a family, were going to go to our cabin and do some work on it in preparation for renting it out.  Cousins, uncles, and aunts were going to be there.

Upon receiving the details of viewing and funeral, our plans were changed.  And yes, our boys were disappointed and thought we could still go because all the viewing/funeral details were Sunday -  Tuesday.
Yes, in all reality we could've still gone, it simply would've made for a very hectic weekend.

My response to the boys included... death interrupts life.

Initially I was thinking of our life and its plans.  When death happens, it is never convenient.  Plans are changed, lives are disrupted, dreams are ended.

But literally, it is true.  Death interrupts life.

Aunt Lil's life was interrupted.  It seems to be cut short.  Children needed her.  Grandchildren would've benefited from her presence.  Husband is alone.  Many friends benefited from her care.

That is the temporary perspective.  The part we see and feel.

II Corinthians 4:18, says the things we can not see is what is eternal.  The eternal perspective.

The eternal perspective breathes a hope and a promise.




Jesus.

One day, He, who is Life,  will forever interrupt death!  Death will be swallowed up in victory.  forever!!

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To those who have traded your earthly, human body for an eternal one... we miss you.  We ache to talk to you for you are a part of our lives.

But we know there is more than what we see.

So, until we reunite, we place our hand in the hand of Jesus and choose to walk with Him, trusting His heart and allowing Him to guide us safely home.

Friday, March 18, 2016

The Security of the Love of God


Earlier I wrote a post on security, how it is a part of our very being to want security.  We don't usually like to be left alone in unfamiliar territory or walk into a ladies' seminar without a friend, etc.

What is it that makes us secure?
And is there one thing that is relevant to all of us??

I've been pondering this anew lately as I looked a bit at the topic of modesty and why there is a pull for us as women to reveal our bodies.

There was a common thought that kept voicing itself... we as woman want to be accepted.  We want to know we are worth something, and our bodies are one place we want to be validated.  (This subject is much more, but this post was not to expound on it)

Do I have something worthwhile?  Does someone love me?

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LOVE.

Love seems to quietly and loudly shout its presence, that I am what makes the difference.

LOVE.

Love defines.  Love quiets the heart. Love secures.

For isn't when we know we are loved for who we are, not what edited pictures proclaim or a moment in when I succeed, that are hearts are quieted and rest is brought to our souls?

When a man asks us to go on a date, we feel valued, like I must be worth something.  Or someone chooses to befriend us and our hearts soar with warm, fuzzy feelings.
When we make a mistake and he continues to want us or a friend sticks with us, we are awed that he/she would still want us.  Our hearts are quieted.

We want to be loved. In our messy-ness.  In our mistakes.  In our successes. We want to know, that in-spite-of... someone sees beyond the moment and doesn't hang our worth on our performance, whether good or bad.

There is power in Love.

Love secures.

But there are moments and times when our close friends and loved ones misunderstand and we feel missed.  Then what?  That ache is still there.  Uncertainty grips our hearts and love becomes a search, again...

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When we are searching for love, we search in areas that won't satisfy until we come to JESUS.

JESUS.

The ultimate Lover.
The genuine Lover.

He died for us while we were still sinners.
He pardoned the adulteress.
He called the woman with many husbands to go and sin no more.
He looked at Peter after Peter denied Him three times.
Rahab, the prostitute, found redemption when she chose to follow Him.
and on...

You - ...

Jesus.  stretched out His arms. with love. and died. for you. for me.
His love is endless. eternal. knows no bounds or limits.

Jesus, the perfect Lover.  He is the One who wants our hearts, first and foremost.  He has commanded us to first - love the LORD thy God with ALL THINE HEART and with all thy soul and with all thy mind.

He tells us in Song of Solomon 2:4, just like the bridegroom to his bride, My banner over you is LOVE.

I have loved you with an everlasting love. Jer. 31:3

Friends,
my heart is passionate to stir your heart towards the Love of God; either to remind you of God's love for you or to nudge you on the path to knowing how much you are loved by God.

For when we KNOW we are loved by God, we can let go of our addictions, we don't have to use our bodies for validation; we can rest in God and what He says about me.

Ephesians 3:17-19
 That Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you being ROOTED AND GROUNDED  in LOVE, 
  May be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height -
  To know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

Friends and people are not meant to complete us, that is God's place to fill.  He is a Jealous God and will not give up that position very easily.  He does not force us to have Him fill the aches of our hearts, but He sure woos and whispers to us to invite Him in.


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When I KNOW whose I am
and am convinced of His love for me
I can be free.

Free. 
Free from needing to perform.
Free from hurting myself.
Free to live.

God's love sets us free!

Like a butterfly perched on the edge of stick
drying its wings as it comes out of a cocoon;
and then...
 taking off in the summer's breeze.

ALIVE.
FREE TO BE.





it was off before I was ready :)
but it's there above the trees...
May you know deep in your heart that GOD LOVES YOU!
(and this is a journey of a lifetime, for we continually need to return to the Anchor of our soul and be reminded of His love and our worth in Him)

And if you are not convinced.... ask Him.  And don't let go until you know.
For where there is LOVE there is LIFE!

He wants you to know!  For His love. is the anchor. of the soul.



Sunday, March 13, 2016

Character Buildings






We hear, at times, this is character building... This will build character...

Jesus is redeeming us, building a masterpiece, using the dark pieces as well as the light.  He will take the ashes and create beauty and the crooked pieces align to beauty when He builds.

Oh, the stories, these buildings must have to tell...

What is your story?  What story do you have to tell in honour of the Master Builder.












Sunday, March 6, 2016

Elisha Eyes





Have you ever cried out, "Alas, my Master! What shall we do?"

The servant of Elisha woke up one morning and realized they were surrounded by the enemy.  The city was surrounded by horses and chariots and he cried out, "Alas, my master! What shall we do?

Elisha responded, "Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them."
And Elisha prayed. "Lord, open his eyes that he may see."

And the Lord opened the eyes of the young servant.  And he saw.  horses.  chariots of fire. round about Elisha.   II Kings 6:13-17


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O Lord,
give us Elisha eyes that see beyond ---
Beyond today.
Beyond the struggle of this moment.

Open our heart's eyes to see
the power, the grace, and love
 You have encompassed us with.

For Lord,
You are Omnipotent, All-Powerful.
You are Omniscient, All-Knowing.
We come.  To rest in this Truth.
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Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.
We are more than conquerors through Him that love us.  Romans 8:37

Eyes to see beyond this moment of loneliness.  Jesus, You are more than the reality of this moment.  We are not alone and in our moment of loneliness, You want us to turn our eyes toward You.

Loneliness empties the world around us
to open our hearts to the world beyond us.


Eyes to see beyond the mountain of everyday responsibilities.  Responsibilities that seem, in and of themselves, mundane and even pointless.  This mundane urges us on to being faithful in the little. For it's in the faithfulness of little that we can be trusted to be faithful in the big.  Faithful in the everyday where there is no glamour.  For that, is where the rubber meets the road.  Am I able to do life without recognition, as a servant?  You, O Lord, showed us that in a real way.

If we are to be trusted with the big and glamour
we must be trustworthy in the little and mundane.


Eyes to see beyond the pain of loss and rejection.  For in this life we are but passing through.  There is a bigger perspective, a bigger picture and I forget that so quickly.  When I lose someone or something or someone has pierced my heart, it feels so defining.  It's not.  Jesus' Greater Truth wants to speak to our hearts and whisper it's definition... You are mine.  I love you with an everlasting love.  I am WITH YOU.  Emmanuel, is My name. Yes, it hurts, but it does not erase the Truth of God.
(clarification: There are levels of pain and stages of grief, so I am aware that healing is a journey and those stages need to be walked through.  If you are in an angry, pain-filled stage, that's ok...  My heart's desire and I believe it's God's as well, is to find Him in the midst of it; trusting Him and believing His Truth.)

In the moment of pain, is the moment that God is still there.
In faith, reach out to Him and cling to His strong hand.



Elisha eyes.

Eyes to see beyond...
Eyes to 'see' God and the power and strength we have IN HIM!
Eyes to see that He is for us and not against us.  
Eyes to see we are loved, deeply, by God!







Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Timeless Beauty


There is so much beauty in the usual, mundane, spectacular, hidden and obvious places.  I've captured a few and wanted a place to 'keep' them.

God is a God of beauty and splendour.  He splashes it across the sky.  He buries it in the depths of the sea.  He hides it under a tree or calls a flower to bloom out of the rocky soil.

God splashes it, revealing His beauty.  Other times He hides, calling us to search, dig, and want to find His beauty.

And in our lives, He redeems.
Taking ashes and making beauty.
Taking our weaknesses and shining His love and glory on them.

Beauty.
Glorious.
Sometimes Hard.
Sometimes Spectacular.
But all about HIM!