Where Does Your Price Tag Hang?

You may think I will talk about money, not this time.

Life is valuable we say. We tell others.  We believe it for them. Until it comes to ourselves and then we feel worthless.

Why do we feel worthless??
For me, I realize it comes on the heels of a time when I don't feel accepted by another.  Or when my prayer to God goes unanswered for several years.  Or when I 'miss the mark', I mess up.  I realized this morning, that I have hung my worth or value on 'whether or not' according to what happens in a given situation.

Whether or not, my voice is heard.
Whether or not, my idea is taken.
Whether or not, I am noticed and enjoyed.
Whether or not, I get it right.
Whether or not...

We hang our price tag on whether I am accepted by others.
We hang it on whether God hears and answers our heart's cry.

Right now I am struggling not to hang mine on a prayer and heart's cry that seemingly has been unheard.  Bedwetting is a huge issue and struggle in this household.  I have pled, cried, and longed for healing.  But no...

On that basis I have struggled with God and want to say "You don't love me... You don't care" and it struck my heart how I am putting my value tag on whether God heals or not.

He LOVES NO MATTER WHAT!
We ARE VALUABLE NO MATTER WHAT!

In that moment my heart shifted and I paused for a moment to repent and let go.  I found as a result that I could actually hold out my longings to Him without the resentment.  Yes, it still hurt.  Yes, I longed and felt some sadness.  But I also felt peace.  I felt a rest, a release.

For ye are bought with a price:  I Corinthians 6:20a

For ye are of more value than the sparrows,  Matthew 10:31

We have these words from the mouth of Jesus, why are they so hard to believe???  Lord, help my unbelief.

In the same way what we do or don't do is NOT hinged on whether God loves us; so our worth is NOT hinged on whether God answers our desires the way we want or whether another person validates us, or I get it right!

There is nothing wrong with enjoying the feeling of acceptance or even the desire to be enjoyed.  Or having our desires recognized.  It gives us a sense of significance.  But it must not define us.  It does not define us.  Our true significance comes from Jesus and the love He has for us.  When we pin our value or identity on something tangible it will, at some point, change or be lost and then we become angry or disillusioned, etc.

When we pin our value tag on God's love, it doesn't change.  It's a solid foundation.  God has told us that He loves us with an everlasting love. That makes my heart smile.  Ahhhh... do you feel your heart relaxing??

Yes, it hurts when rejection strikes our heart.  Or someone else's idea is preferred above mine.  But you know what?  No one can destroy the love of God for me!!!  Only I can refuse to live into that.  Only I can refuse the gift, and then I will pin my value on something tangible and still be hurt.

Let that pound into your head and heart.  Say it over and over.  Ask the Lord for His Greater Truth to be absorbed and believed.

Take the value tag off of your heart's desire and pin it on the love Jesus has for you, and you just may find your heart shift a bit closer to God and may be able to hold on to your desires without the resentment of unmet longings.

My value is in Him and Him alone.  Your value is in Him and Him alone.
Ahhhh....

Inhale that truth.  Take it in.  Absorb His Truth.  Let it change your heart.


... thanks for 'stopping by' :)  May your day be touched by Him who loves you!

Be Still and Know

Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations; I will be exalted in the earth.
The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our stronghold.  Psalm 46:10-11

Be still means to cease striving, to let go, relax.
It doesn't mean, do nothing.  It means stop working so hard at making life work.
Cease striving for perfectionism.  Let go of a standard or criteria to perform.  Relax.  Take a deep breath.  Let go...

Why??

To know God. To listen for His voice.  To know that He IS God.  He is capable.  He has your back.  His shoulders are big enough to shoulder your load.  He wants you.  Pursue Him and learn of His heart for you.
Relax.  Let go. Cease striving...

Let go of perfectionism to find His perfect love, grace, and rest.
Let go of a standard you place on yourself or you think others want to find His standard of grace is enough for this moment, this trial.
Let go of doing or performing for God and relax.  He wants you.  He wants you to find Him...

Let go of worry to rest in His care.
Let go of hate or bitterness to find His love and forgiveness.
Let go of performing to bask in His grace.
Let go of control to find that He is strong enough to take care of you.
Let go of criticism to hear His words...

Let go...
To find Him.

God wants to be and will be exalted and when we find Him, He is exalted. He is exalted among the people around you.

God is with us.  He is our stronghold.

He is in the boat with us in the midst of the storm.
He is holding our hand and guiding us.  Don't let go.
He is our stronghold.  A place to find refuge from the darts and daggers that come our way.  That want to hit the mark of our heart and lodge there.

Strongholds were a place built for a group of people to be out of danger's way.  So the darts of the enemy could not pierce them.  They were built to be strong, to endure attacks.  Human strongholds didn't always last or hold up, but our Stronghold will.  God will endure the storm, so hide in the shadow of the Almighty; for you will find that you will make it.  You will endure, because He endures.  You will be safe.  Not that life will now be easy or comfortable, but when I think of safe, I think of a place where I can relax and take a deep breath.

Relax, because I know He is trustworthy.  Relax, because I know in whom I have believed, has a heart that is good towards me.  Relax from perfectionism because His love is not based on my performance, but on His heart of love; which neither success or failure will alter.  Relax, because I am important to Him.

Be still.
Cease striving.  Let go.  Relax.  To find His hand.  To find a place of safety from all that threatens to overwhelm our soul.

To hear His voice.  To hear His words above the words that pound our minds and hearts.  His words whisper and bring peace.  His words calm the overwhelmed soul and soothe the troubled heart.

Listen.  Let go.  Relax.  Be still and know God.

Desires of the Heart

Psalm 37:4 keeps popping up on my 'screen' and I have been mulling it over...
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.

Okay, here's the pondering - I've read this verse countless times and more than likely you have to.  It says if we delight, He will give.

So, I follow God and delight in Him, but the some of the desires of my heart remain ungiven.  There are some longings that I wonder about, they seem legit.  Then the battle comes, "Is God still good?  Can I still trust Him with my longings?"
I have a choice, become disillusioned and hold back from God, or I can still trust Him and come to Him with my whole heart.

But, could it be another way around???  Could it be that if I delight in the Lord, He will GIVE ME desires in my heart?  Will He place the desires there?

Instead of Him fulfilling my desires and giving me what I want, maybe it's more of Him giving (placing) me the desires in my heart.

Because I don't believe God is a God to be manipulated with.  If I do this, You do that...

What do you think?

Encountering The Giver of Life

In parenting children, for me it's boys, it's a world of noise, laughter, egos, and more.  It's a place and time I feel completely lost to sea a lot of the time and wonder, "How does one raise boys to be men?  To instill character that will chart their course to live by.  To direct their energy and drama toward God."

Many times in my lostness and out of my comfort zone, I wonder, "Am I getting anywhere?  Am I making a difference? Will they... "
If I am going to judge by what I see there are days that would seem like I am and days that tell me I am not.

I am given raw material.  Human hearts that imprints will be left upon.

So often I leave an imprint that pushed too hard, wasn't gentle enough with, spoke too harshly, etc. and I wonder if it hardened...  Will it stay that way?

Redemption.  Whispers its way into my heart.  Yes, redemption.

Look at Peter.
A man of vivaciousness.  Blurting out many words before he thought.  Making strong commitments and then not keeping them, denying the One he followed.
to -
A man of bold faith.  Preaching the One to many and offering Him to those he met; like the lame man desiring alms.  Silver and gold have I none, but in the name of Jesus, rise up and walk.

There is Paul.
A man who was convinced the Christians were wrong and needed to be annihilated.  Passionate.  Supportive of anyone who chose to kill the Christians.  Dynamic.
to -
A man whose only goal and passion was to know Jesus and Him alone.  Preaching with strong, dynamic passion that we must not let anything become more than Jesus.  Not even preaching, not even the ceremonies, and not even the way we live out our faith.  It must all come after a relationship with God.
And as Paul wrestled with God about his thorn in the flesh, God gave words to Paul that brought him peace and rest.  He encountered God and experienced Him, when he heard the words, "My grace is sufficient for thee; for My strength is made perfect in weakness,"  Paul's situation did not change, but his heart did.  He chose to trust God and find Him to be strong for him.

Rahab.
A lady.  A prostitute.  A Gentile.  One who sold her body so she could live.
to -
selling her life so she could really live.  She met Jesus, and she chose Him, and she received true life.  eternal life.

Mary Magdalene.
Another lady who sold her body and the demons invaded.  Her life was trapped in the forces that took hold of her.
until she too -
Met Jesus and He, gently, set her free from those forces and Jesus became the force and passion of her life.  She was devoted to Him, for she was set free.

What about you and I??  Have you initially encountered Him as the One who has set you free from your bondage, sin, and fear?  Do you continue to encounter Him, the One who loves you SO MUCH?

Encounter.  What does it mean to encounter someone or something?  Webster's definition is: to meet unexpectedly; come upon; to meet in conflict or battle; a direct meeting.

Have you met God in your battle?  Have you had a direct meeting with Him and found Him to be your Strength?  Is He your Hope?  Is He your Salvation?  Do you KNOW Him, really know Him?

It will be a life-long journey of learning to know Him.  This lifetime will never exhaust who He is. Is it your passion to learn more of Him, today.  in this moment that you are facing?  Do you encounter Him again and again?  When we, like Mary Magdalene, remember what He saved us from, our sin, our fears, our bondages; gratefulness and adoration must be our response.

This doesn't come without a cost. a price.  It will cost us our self.  At times, our desires and goals may need to be given up for His goals and passion.  He gave His all, am I willing to give mine?

I believe, when we have a life-changing encounter with Him we will want to give Him our worship and our passion.
Again, my mind goes to the disciples... Their time with Jesus and the learning and falling and learning it took for them to be changed.  It didn't happen with one encounter and neither will mine or yours. It will take a lifetime of intentional and passionate living for Jesus; the redeeming of our selves will happen with each encounter we have with the Giver of Life.

It's a learning more of His love for each one of us.  It's a choosing to believe His Greater Truth and inhaling it in the mundane and painful moments we experience.  It's looking to Him when want to run away.  It's holding and even gripping His hand until we see Him. in this moment.

When You Wish You Were a Different Mommy by Alicia Broxvoort, is an excellent article, reminding us of our hope, our redemption, Jesus!  Jesus is our strength. (you will probably need to click on search engine or look for previous devotionals)

The truth is... not only do my children need to encounter God, so do I.  So do you.
After our initial encounter with God, the Giver of Life, we need daily encounters.  Encounters over and over, because we experience life over and over.  Disappointments, unmet desires and longings, pain, death...
So, point your children to God; for it is only in Him that they will truly live. (And I speak to myself as well...) Trust Jesus.  Proverbs 3:5-6 is there for a reason - Trust in LORD with all thine heart and lean not on thine own understanding.  In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths."
It may even be more of a changing of our hearts before a changing of our children's hearts.  For if our children see God alive in our hearts, it will be more likely that they will want to know God as well. (It is still no guarantee, for each child is given a choice...)

When someone is excited about something and when you hear how Jesus is alive to an individual, doesn't it make you want it to??  It does me and it's a greater chance that it will affect your children, too.  We all want life.  We all want to live...  It boils down to - Are we willing to pay the price?  Are we willing to allow Him to change our desires and passions to match His??  Do I believe His love for me and that His heart IS good towards me?

Can I trust Him with my boys?  Can I trust Him if things don't turn out the way I want them too, that He will be big enough?  strong enough for me??  Yes, I believe He will be.  But will I trust Him?  Yes!  It just may take a lifetime of learning. :)

We need to encounter God so He can empower us to rise above all the heartache and pain and the self that lies within us.

The truth of the matter is, we all need an encounter with God.  Not just once, but again and again.  over and over as we experience life over and over.  Let's find Him today and if we don't see Him right now, we hold His hand and ask again for Him to show Himself to us.

You are loved by God.  fully.  deeply.

A Prayer for the Wearying Heart

Recently I wrote a series about the seasons and how they parallel to our lives.

This morning as I was sitting and once again watching the snow fall on this first day of March, I thought about how the winter gets long.  We're ready for warm and spring, but the snow keeps falling and the winds keep blowing.

And yet, I see the beauty of the moment.  The world is white once again.

Isn't that so true in life???
The 'winter' keeps on...

The prayers are still unanswered...
The prayer for wisdom is still given no direction...
That relationship is still floundering and one wonders what to do...
The grief still lingers...
You put your 'winter' here ___________...

We're ready for change.  for it to be changed.  our hearts grow weary and faint.  My eyes fail to see the beauty of this moment...

That's when we still lean toward Jesus.  We turn our eyes to Him, even in the midst of pain and questions; for the pain and questions don't change the character of God.

He is still Love.
He is still God.
And He still is enough.
He is Wisdom.
He is Strength.

I find myself here this morning.
I find myself reaching out to Him, the only One who embodies Strength and Peace.
The One who says, "Come unto Me and find rest..."

Rest from the storm.
Rest from striving.
Rest from being strong.
Rest...

And this where I pray...  (it's a bit raw, but maybe that just where you are too... there is freedom in telling God about it...)

O Lord,
Like the snow fallling --
is there any beauty in all of my mess??

Open my eyes to see it, because right now all I want is change...
for my circumstances to be different. for someone else to change.

I bring to You my anger, frustrations, and wounds --
for You said, "Come unto Me and find rest."

But are You really strong enough or will you run away from it all?  Will it be too much and then You react to all of my mess??

(I will never leave you nor forsake you.)

O God.  
Help my struggling heart that wants rest, to believe.
Open my eyes to see You and the beauty that may lie beneath the struggle.
May I have Your strength to trust You,
because I am weak and tired of fighting.

(and this is where I realize there may be a clue... Tired of fighting my fears. tired of the loneliness.  tired of the ache.  and tired of the push-pull to believe and find God in the middle of it all)

And so, Lord,  I let go...  as scary as that is...
I let go to find You...
To find You big enough and strong enough.
To know that Your love and grace is sufficient. for today. for this moment.
I place my hand in Yours. to keep me. to hold me. to search me.  and to guide me.

Thank You, Lord.
I love You...

Psalm 139 has been a passage of Scripture that I have read over and over this week because I asked God what I should do.
It speaks of God knowing us and seeing us.  We can't get away from Him.  He sees.  He knows.
It speaks of how important we are to Him, the One who made us.
And it speaks of the pain that David feels and the agony that goes with it.
But then the last two verses grab my attention...

Search me, O God, and know my heart; 
Try me and know my anxious thoughts;
And see if there be any hurtful way in me,
And lead me in the everlasting way.

Wait a minute... people are after David.  They hate him and he ends this Psalm with search me?  try me?

Wow.  Yes, that is true.
Because in the middle of someone hurting us or circumstances being hard, in the middle of our winter, our hearts need to be searched.
Searched for any hurtful way that is in there.  It's all about redemption.
The redemption of my soul and often times it's the hard that brings it to the surface.
Unforgiveness. Anger.  Bitterness.  And simply the reminder that I am not god, I need the Living God.
But it's also the only way to practice the Jesus way...

Forgiveness.
Jesus died, forgiving all.  Even the ones who betrayed Him.  He was mocked while hanging on the cross.  He was in the minority, few people 'got' who He was.
Is my pain any different?  Am I called to anything less?

Love.
Love gives in spite of it being received.  Ouch.
Jesus gave His life.  gave His all.  for me. for you. for all.  He didn't hold it back, even though He struggled in the garden, He found God.  His strength to go on and face the days ahead.  He rose from His prayer ready to face what was ahead.
Is my situation any different?  Has God's strength been depleted for me? NO. it's not.

So, search me God. and ~
Lead me in the everlasting way.

Spring WILL COME. :)

(I stepped out to take a picture and what did I find?! --- a robin.  in the middle of a snow storm.  Now isn't that God!  My heart is finding Him and smiling.  May you find Him today.  In the middle of all your mess.)